Ya’ll, I wrote a book... Matter of fact… two.
Hold on, my chest is getting tight again, and I need to breathe.
*very loud and aggressive exhale*
YA’LL I WROTE SOME BOOKS! And people are actually buying them?!? What multiverse am I currently living in? PLEASE.
Let me slow down, so you can kinda understand where I am. I've always known I’d write a book someday, that’s not what I’m tripping on. I’m tripping on how it happened, and how quickly it happened. Here’s how this went down…
I was at my part-time job on a Monday; first of all I’m usually off on Mondays, but the Lord knew what He was doing. Two hours into my shift I got one of those very fast, very detailed heavenly downloads (IYKYK). Thankfully, nobody was in the store because I hollered out loud, “HEY! I DON’T HAVE ANY PAPER… HOLD ON!”. I found the quickest piece of paper I could and wrote out the
three topics that I was about to discuss in these books.
Now, I thought my first book would be a hard copy or paperback, that I could sign. I never imagined it being an e-book. So, I instantly started overthinking, instantly. “Well, how do I format that?”, “Where will it be uploaded?”, “How long will it take to process?”, and “Will it be available in the timeframe that you’re asking for, God?”. Because He was very clear that I only had a few days to get this first project out, and I had no clue how this was about to go.
Mind you, I hadn’t even written the first line of this book, and I was already trying to figure out the end of the thing. Here we go with that control problem again, but I digress.
Anyhow, I got home that night, put my phone in another room, and opened my laptop. I was typing so fast that I didn’t even get a chance to go back and make any edits until the end. Like, I knew I didn’t come up with these concepts on my own, there’s no way. I was writing about my experiences, but the
verbiage?!? Yeah, that was God. Within two hours, TWO, the book was fully written. I wish I was joking. Over the next two days, I designed the book, formatted everything and then I put it into a PDF.
I went on my website, and started browsing through the “store” tab. I had never added a product, so I was trying to figure this all out. I went to “add new product”, and it asked me for the title of the product, and whether it was a digital or physical product (to include an e-book). Then when I said e-book, it prompted me to upload a file… a PDF; that I had already created. At this point my mouth was stuck open, because this process was seamless. I uploaded the file, priced it, and hit “save”. That was it, it was live, on my website ready for purchase. I was STUNNED, and quickly said, “God why was that so easy?”.
I instantly had a flashback to the beginning of the year. And He reminded me of the day that I was sitting in a coffee shop, building all of my systems and structures for this moment. I had no product, I didn’t even have the money to set up everything, but I did what I could. I knew then that at some point this year, I was going to release something. And when the time came, I didn’t want to have to figure out the “How” … I wanted it to be seamless. 7.5 months later, it made sense.
*Eyes watering*
I have to be very honest…In that coffee shop that day, I was planning and preparing with a broken heart. I wanted to stay in bed, but I made myself get up that day. Something in me was fighting for future me, and said “Babe, we got somewhere to be.”.
So, you mean to tell me, we’re in the same year, the same storyline, and the same “brokenhearted girl” … is an author? Twice over?! And the words are helping people?!
That just confirms for me, that nothing is ever wasted. I don’t care what phase you’re in right now, future YOU is waiting and will thank you for the tears, for the press, and the prep that you’re doing right this moment.
You know what else it confirms for me? (Don’t hit me) God said what He said, and if He’s given you something to do, move quickly. There’s a reason why He gave it to YOU. Don’t delay, and don’t drag your feet… you don’t have that luxury anymore. He will give it to someone else, and you’ll be kicking yourself.
Anyhow…It’ll all make sense.
Talk soon,
Racq