And we’re byke.
Soooooo, I got baptized (again) a few weeks ago. I’ve definitely been baptized twice before, but let me just give a bit of context. Kay?
The first time I was baptized, I was about 9 or 10, I think? And I just felt like it was something I was supposed to do. I’m a certified church baby, so it made sense to me at the time. That wasn’t it, boo.
The second time, chile. *chuckles* I got baptized in my early 20s at my home church, by my dad, which was sweet. But looking back on it, it wasn’t really because I had this deep, intimate connection with God… I felt like it was my “restart” for all the mistakes I had made at that time. Again, really sweet…but… ehhh… I hadn’t even started my hot girl phase yet.
Whewwwwwwww thank God for grace.
*Wild Behavior*
So, this time was different. God & I have been hanging pretty tough the last few years. Not that I haven’t made mistakes, not that I don’t have slip ups, or flawed moments, but I’ve been committed to not straying away from Him. At this point, If I feel “off” or “blah”, it’s usually because I haven’t prayed, or spent any time with Him. And baby the MOMENT I have a slip up these days, I be in the floor just wailing. “LAWDDD, FORGIVE MEEE, LAWDDDD”. Just hollering like I’m at Granny’s funeral.
Crazy but true.
We talk about everything. I tell God EVERYTHING, in the rawest forms and fashions. So, the occasional, “My bad, Lord” or “Sorry Jesus” comes out if I get a little too excited. It’s the best.
I’ll tell you this… I had a moment in prayer a few weeks ago, where I was bawling my eyes out about my love for Him. You know what I said? “I don’t ever want you to leave me, because I love having you here.” I don’t want this intimate space to be interrupted, it’s priceless. But I know that it won’t
always be like this. At some point I’ll be sharing my time with my very fine, very amazing, very giving husband. I’ll be on field trips with my intelligent, creative children, and packing color-coded lunchboxes. AND AT SOME POINT, I’ll be overseeing my Fortune 500 company. But for now, I get one on one time with Him, and Him with me.
This sounds like a love letter, don’t it?
So, I chose to make a public commitment that I’d live for Him and that I’d tell the world about Him.
And every day somebody’s asked me, “How do you feel?” with extra grins and excitement.
My answer, “Maneeeee, we been kicking it… ya’ll just getting a peek into our bond.”
I love it here, honestly.
*happy daughter sigh*
Talk soon,
Racq